Firsts

My beloved,
I wish I could say that every important first in my life had taken place with you. However, it took thirty years of firsts for me to get to a place where I was ready for you. I made a lot of bad decisions before you helped me start making the right ones. When I met you, a lot of impossibilities suddenly became possible. Things I had never thought I would even consider, that two people could love each other so much and that the love could last.

This world, with all of its problems and potential heartbreaks, has not always been kind to me and I have occasionally thought it had it out for me. This world, that I thought was full enough without my adding to it. But with you, I began to see that maybe there was room in this world for more. The love that I, that WE, could bring to a new life was enough to fend off the evils that exist both within and outside our walls. And so we began this adventure. Through a sometimes rocky pregnancy and a very rocky delivery, we were together, hand in hand. I could not have asked for a more supportive partner. I am so proud that you are the father of this baby girl. This beginning. This continuation.

Over the last eight months, I have watched you both grow. She in the most literal sense and you in a less physical, but no less tangible way. I have seen how with just a smile she can change your day. The absolute joy her laughter can bring to you and the bottomless sorrow her tears. I admit that before she came into our lives I worried some. It was not you that I doubted. Not really. It was my own cracks that were showing. I needn't have.

So here we are, a family. Each day I love her more. And I love you more. And I love US more. Our baby girl, our future - all of our hopes poured into one tiny little being that such a short time ago was just a dream yet unfulfilled. Here's to all of our days together and all those yet to come.

Happy First Fathers Day!!
Love, Me