I laid on my bed today, watching my daughter as she danced around my bedroom. I could hear the wind as it buffeted our house. There was a strip of light shining in through the window onto the floor. She babbled as she moved, picking up a belt and draping it over her shoulders.
I will remember this moment. I will remember the way my daughter climbed up the end of our bed, clinging to the wrought iron to get face to face with me. Her huge smile when she pulled herself up.
She won't remember this at all. This will be just a tiny building block in the foundation of her personality. Hopefully, these times spent laughing and talking and playing with her will help her become the confident, intelligent, capable person I dream that she will be.
I have so many dreams for where she will go. What she will do. After just 15 months, I already feel like time is slipping through my fingers. I am beginning to forget the little things about her babyhood. I wish I could capture the way I feel when I look down at her serene face as she nurses, her hand gently kneading my breast. Or the weight of her tiny body when I lower her into her crib.
At the same time I push her to her next milestone, I wish I could freeze her for a while. Stop the sands from falling and enjoy this little being, just as she is.
Ahhhh, that was sweet. Yes, it does go faster. Wouldn't it be cool of we could download memories onto a disk so we could watch them at will in the future?
ReplyDeleteOh Cara...I know...I do...
ReplyDeleteTake pictures with your heart. Every day, many times a day.
*hugs* Everyone tells me that kids grow up so fast... I think blogging will help you hold on to those memories for a long time. And it makes me smile to think of our kids coming back one day and reading all of our thoughts as we watched them grow...
ReplyDeleteIt goes by way too quick ... it seems like just yesterday I was snuggling with the little boy who is now too cool to even give his Mom a kiss ...
ReplyDeleteSniff sniff. Amen.
ReplyDeleteThis was a little stage for us where we sort of plateaued for a little while, long enough to absorb the baby before he/she became toddler. Enjoy. It's a very sweet time.
ReplyDeleteI could not have said it better time just moves too fast for all children
ReplyDeleteThis is the hardest part for me....
ReplyDeleteI believe that this is very mother's wish. It would be so nice if we could keep them little for when we need it but also have them experience growing up. It is so bitter sweet.
ReplyDeleteIt's so hard to understand what it means that time is passing by every day and our kids take a step closer to being independent from us. Keep doing whatever you can do to imprint this time into your memory; I feel like with every passing year, the days slip by faster and faster all the while.
ReplyDeletePosts like this one will help you both remember such moments.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful photograph. Are you in love with your new camera or what?
Oh girl. I so know this. It doesn't get any easier to watch them grow. I am so glad you are relishing it.
ReplyDeleteOh I know what you mean! I try to take in the moments as much as I can.
ReplyDeleteSuch a cute pic!!!
I know. I keep telling my husband we need one of those Star Wars freezing things like they used on Hans Solo. And he reminds me that stuff hurts and, well, it's fictional. I just want a little pause button!
ReplyDeleteSigh...I wrote lots and lots of posts like this with each of my kids at this age.
ReplyDeleteI actually forgot about the way my little baby girl would "knead" my breast as she nursed. It almost made me miss nursing. (stress the "almost" part)
So wonderfully written! I spend time with these kids at church (who are older than your daughter) and I wonder if they'll remember me, no matter how much time I spend with them. But then I realize I don't want them to remember me, but what I'm teaching them. That's much more important.
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ReplyDeleteSorry, got antsy there and pushed the button twice. I don't know why my computer has slowed down. Oh well, I guess this is a 3rd comment from me!
ReplyDeleteOh she is sooo sweet! Somehow, suddenly, she seems to have grown and is prettier than ever.
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